Oh right I should write
I bought a bear subscription around a year ago. I was in a bar in Lausanne, waiting for my girlfriend while topped with 2 beers. The bar was cosy and nice, low lights, made me want to do something interesting.
I dove into my positive melancholic moods. They are sad for they sing about what could be, but happy, because the song reminds me of the possibility. I leant into the possible, fortunately.
And what could that be? In that moment I was remind of all the times I said I would start writing again, of how I would put myself to work, even if only a couple words per day, like I used to.
So, charged with that hope that comes after 2 beers and moody dreaminess, I bought a bear subscription, for one year, like people buy gym ones on new year's.
I'm sad to announce it did not work... YET? Alas! I still have time with 4 months extra for free. So maybe this time?